my cousin’s youngest son, nate, died on on thursday. he was 10. he and his best friend noah were electrocuted on the 4th of july while swimming around water that had come in contact with live wires. the funeral was this evening.
how disgustingly sudden. i cry every time i think about it. i know the word is always used for these kinds of things but…i just keep thinking “how tragic. how tragic. truly truly tragic.”
if you know me at all you know i love children. very deeply and very passionately. i am very aware of the fact that is a very strong supernatural love and compassion towards them. they are so precious to me. all of them.
and though i am truly sorry to say that i never met nate… the fact that he was so little….and he shared my last name just—creates such an inexplicable sorrow in my heart.i think you may have to be a female to understand it. we were created to care for and protect children. when one is lost…the pain is suffocating.
i can’t even begin to think about what his mother must feel. or his brothers and sister. they are all so little. how do you explain to a 6 year old that she will never see her big brother again?
nate’s mom is an art teacher and i hear that nate loved art. he loved to draw. somehow that is another little dagger in my heart. i wish i had known him to find out what he liked to draw and why he liked it. he also had a mohawk and listened to lecrae. and someone said he had a slightly dry sense of humor. he went to a classical christian school like i did. cute little guy isn’t he? he had the one slanty eye thing that we Lynams have when we smile.lol. nate and i would have been friends i’m sure.
the only other thing i know about him was that he loved jesus and was baptized only a few months ago. so i don’t grieve for him. his little heart is experiencing the fullness of perfect joy with his Father. and he now understands more than i ever will on this earth. but oh! how i grieve for his parents! for his siblings! for their little hearts that don’t understand! for my family. for how the enemy will try to use this! i hear that the weight of losing a child is one that few have born without being overcome with depression and permanent death in some area of one’s heart.
the only consolation i have is that God the Father himself has felt this pain. the pain of losing a son. an innocent son. one that literally brought life to everyone, everything he touched.but all children do this in the eyes of their parents.
oh Lord! enrapture these hearts under the wings of your compassion, your mercy, your peace, and your steadfast and perfect love. there is no shadow with you. you are good. infuse us with the faithfulness that you show to us so purely. send your spirit to help us remain unscathed by our pain and unswayed by the enemy’s lies. in the name of Christ our Lord, amen.
